I give up... nebula: Hello Everyone.
This is my first poste and I better hurry up while I'm still under 35. Profile, single (half time) mother of 2 great children. I find that relationships get harder with time... here I thought that life experience would make people more mature and honest. I've been hurt, still hurting quite badly. I've been seeing someone which I truly cared a lot for, except that I know he is a player.. Why am I attracted to someone like this, I don't know. a few days ago I went out to supper with him, it started out nicely, until things got out of hand when the subject of an unplanned pregnancy (of which he was the father) that was terminated back in December came up. He denies it now, saying that it couldn't of been him. I know 100% that it was his...I know it doesn't really matter now, except that all of this hurts me badly. I thought this was enough for me to call it quits... he followed me home, got me back into his arms... slept with me and since then he is acting very cold like I'm just a friend. I figured it's probably easy for him as he is most likely spending evenings with other women... it's just that it hurts. Why can't I just turn off my feelings and move on? How can I trust anyone? This is the third person since my breakup which has cheated on me. They were all quite controlling and jealouse, accusing me of cheating on them when there is absolutely no reason. They all say the same thing "what is someone like you doing single?" well... I should start answering, it's because of people like you! I don't know anymore. My children have started knowing him, and now they will wonder where he is. It is so complicated, and I am afraid.
Nebula :'(
Re:I give up... some-guy: nebula,
take many deep breaths and focus. life experience does make people more mature and honest, but it is those life expericences that make people who they are...it may be that you hadn't encountered that situation yet, let alone the other party.
Keep yer heads up, and come here for help. The peops' here are pretty 'with it'
some-guy
Re:I give up... flamelily: nebula,
focus on those kids and let yourself heal... find time to think about what you want in life, and in a relationship, and respect yourself. you are a valuable person who deserves someone who treats you warmly and with consideration, not someone who can't face up to his mistakes. you are worth it.
<hugs>
lily
Re:I give up... snowyheart: Hi nebula,
welcome.
Flamelily is right on. Also, stop settling for these crummy men, these dogs. Maybe you are lonely, but that is not a reason to attach yourself to somebody.
take care,
snowyheart
Re:I give up... nebula: Thank you guys... I don't know why, this one is very hard. I suppose it's like cutting where there is already a scar...I want to be strong about this. I'm trying to hide my emotions in front of my children, I know they can feel something's not right. I'm feeling sick inside....
