Can't think, can't feel....... Kea: ...well that's a lie, I feel like crap.
My husband left me in May.......he left us in May.
I still don't understand.
It hurts.
He went to work one day and rang me and said he doesn't love me anymore. He said that we fell out of love. I said 'Bite me'.
We'd been married 9 years, together 12......two wonderful children a daughter and a son.
I don't know what to do. Some days I can almost function and others....well, they're like today.
It hurts.
Kea
Re:Can't think, can't feel....... JASPER: Oh Kea I am so sorry for you I know some days the pain is unbearable ,and I know it doesn't feel like it but you will get through this.
I wish I had the words to say to take the pain away but I dont all I know is you must be strong for yourself and for your wonderful children.
If your religious pray for the strength you need to get through this.
Re:Can't think, can't feel....... Kea: Thankyou JASPER :).
I'm feeling a bit sorry for myself tonight. I want to curl up in bed and never come out. I want to hide away until everything is 'ok' again.......but I don't know what 'ok' is anymore.
I want to ring him and tell him to come back. I want to ring him and tell him how stupid he is. I want him to see how much he has hurt me. I want him to hurt as much as I do. I want to ring him and tell him I don't EVER want to have ANYTHING to do with him ever again!!
...and then I look at my angels sleeping and know I won't do that. I will be civil, I won't show him how much he is killing me. I won't show him that my world has ended. I will keep going.
Today it was minute be minute, tomorrow it may be hour by hour :)
Thankyou for being here.
Kea
Re:Can't think, can't feel....... JASPER: What a great attitude to have
"minute by minute hour by hour"
I like that I think you will be just fine. All the emotions are tuff to deal with and sort out at first,but you will get stronger everyday. Just keep telling yourself what a fool he is he is about to lose a wonderful and loveing person his lost.
Re:Can't think, can't feel....... justmenow: Did this just come out of the blue or has it been coming for a while? Is he still living at home? How old are your kids? How are they handling things?
1. Allow yourself to have your emotions. You have every right to be angry - good for you for keeping it civil, but don't be a doormat either. It's a fine line, but I'm sure you'll know when to throw caution to the wind.
2. Don't expect to graduate from "minute by minute" to "hour by hour" for a while. The process is slow. Get help if you need help - and never consider yourself weak. You will be on this rollercoaster ride for a while, but we'll all be here to help you through it.
3. You can do this and you will learn a lot about yourself. I don't know if you're religious at all, but when I went to my support group the other night they said something that meant so much to me. They said that during divorce, divorce strips you down to nothing (emotionally), to see what you're made of. From there, God helps to build you back up, stronger, and without all the extra baggage attached. Think of it as emotional drain cleaner (I know, bad analogy... ???)
Good luck!
