Walls jen: Walls
carefully placed
reinforced, armed and at the ready
Walls that say keep out
and keep me safely inside
Walls that were broken
down by loved ones, crushed
when I wanted to hide
but needed most
Walls that now lay crumbled
in pieces, letting light
stream in
Walls that still stand
a maze to find what lies at the center
the rubble and treasure, side by side
to step over, to pick up
hold and exclaim, pieces
of the walls that remain
echoed voices that ask
which walls to replace
which have become disposable, debris
which walls to abandon
walls drowning outside clutter, the silence within a place to retreat
the comfort within frightening, tempting
until voices from outside remind and cajole
no walls can keep me safely inside
walls don't let the sunlight in
Re:Walls jen: Thank you for all of your responses. :)
When I think about the walls that I had in my life before and those that I still have, I don't think that I am as brave as Shey to go without any. I think that we do need some walls (boundaries), but one thing I have learned is how true this is:
[quote"> the more people you let in, the more support when the inevitable pain arrives... [/quote">
I learned that it was okay to lean on others and that it didn't take anything away from them to be there for me. And, for people who I let a little further in because of this experience, it deepened those relationships in ways I can't fully describe.
And, letting new people in has helped me have hope. :)
Re:Walls jimloveless: as much as i'd like to, i don't think i'll ever understand why people shut others out. my STBX built these walls because i hurt her once. it was a stupid, trivial thing really. but she shut me out for it, and never let me back in again. and the more people she shut out, the more selfish she became.
Re:Walls sheydp: I have never had much if any walls (scares my friends to no end)... I am trampling the smallest bits down to nothing when I find them... I have discovered that I only hurt myself with them - and encourage misunderstandings. I knew I loved you, MTMO, from the first hug, but this poem... I think I need to keep it.
Shey
Re:Walls i_sing_alone: I can relate... I always want to protect myself, but you can't protect yourself and put yourself "out there" completely, to be loved, if you have up walls. It's hard to know which ones to keep sometimes.
