Everything WAS going along fine then..... AmyMarie1972: Everything has been going along great. I have a new relationship with a guy that I really like although at the moment it is going really slowly but that's OK.
But then the stbxh comes around tonight. We have been spending hours just lately talking on the internet every night. Tonight he came round to see the kids only they all decided to go out and play with their friends so it was just me and him. He decided to tell me that he has been checking out the guy that i have been seeing. This of course got me a little annoyed especially when he decided to tell me that he has been told that the guy is happily married. I know for a fact that he is not married because i have been to his house a few times and there is no wife there, so i think that he only said it to try and cause trouble. Anyway he then began going over the reasons that we split up and how he will never feel the same for anyone again. I was so sure that me and him were finnished, that i was over the tears and heartache over him but he has knocked me back a bit with tonight. We talked about everything, even got to shouting a bit but that calmed down pretty quickly.
Now I am left asking myself what is it that he really wants from me. He knows that I love him, that I always will. The other question I am left asking is does he want to come back or does he just want to hurt me more. Do I want him back. I was so certain that the answer was going to be NO if I was ever faced with it and now I am not sure again.
Why did he have to do that talk. It made me really look at all my feelings that I have been doing so well at burying. I even asked him to stop talking about the past because it has gone.
I just wish that he hadn't decided to go over the past and talk about how things had gone wrong and how he could never love or trust anybody the way that he did with me.
I know that having this all going around in my head has made me see that I am not as far along on the recovering as I thought I was.
Re:Everything WAS going along fine then..... sourpuss: just a little setback, that's all.
why is it that they don't want us, but don't want anyone else to have us either.....a question for the ages.
