I just don't understand izult: I don’t know how this is going to turn out so I’m just writing like I usually do. There are so many things I don’t understand. I don’t understand how you can sit there and say that by answering the “do you still love me” question it would open the door to the why questions. That response makes me wonder now if you ever really did love me or if I you just stayed with me because I was convenient. You either love me or you don’t. If you love me then we should be together. If you don’t then get away from me and don’t ever come back into my life. You had your chance and you threw it away. It pisses me off that in 4 ½ years you couldn’t figure out what direction you wanted your life to go, that you couldn’t put the effort into it while you were laid off and looking for that job you couldn’t do your “soul searching” then. It REALLY pisses me off that you couldn’t have done this BEFORE you purposed to me. And it REALLY REALLY pisses me off that I’m not over you yet. Why the h3ll can you just end it? How can you say one minute you want to just be friends and then the very next say that you want to fight to keep me? Are you waiting for me to be the villain here so you can say “all I wanted was a break and she treated me like shit”? Is that it? I’ve been so nice. I’ve thought of well over 100 things to do to hurt you but I can’t go through with any of them. I wish to god I could hate you but I can’t. It just hurts.
