Re:torn twobeautifulkids: here's some sympathy and a (((BIG HUG))) for you.
torn defuzer: T.
You have shredded my heart and crushed my soul with your misdeeds. Why could you not be honest with me back in March and just told me you wanted to move on instead of leading me astray? And when you called me up for the first time in weeks and breaking down on the phone leading me to believe that you still wanted me. Then when I stopped by your desk to say hello a few days later you tell me you are going to FL to spend the weekend with some guy from your childhood. You tricked me into feeling sorry for you and I fell for it and then you crushed me again! You knew what that would do to me. You had no right to tell me that, I did not need to know. Ever since you told me that, I have been getting very little sleep and I keep losing weight because I can’t eat. I am sick to my stomach and I am numb. As I was finally crawling out of my own personal hell, you kicked me right back into that fiery pit of darkness. I am so alone and I still love you! I cannot stand the pain and misery from all of this. We have been divorced two months and two days. You have moved on obviously. Thank you for stringing me along giving me false hope. I just wanted to love you for the rest of my life, but you killed me back in December. What I am now is only a shell of my former self. I try to put on a brave face; Lord only knows I get no sympathy from people I work with. I am in the Army for Gods sake! They think I should just suck it up and drive on. I get out of that bed every day, sometime wishing I didn’t wake up. But you are waiting for me in my dreams ready to crush me once again. Thank you for destroying every dream I had and making me feel like a worthless human being. If I was not in the Army I would disappear, but you know I can’t. Thank you for making 2005 the most memorable and horrifying year I have ever had, and its only half over.
M.
Re:torn ti-poux: Hugs to you defuzer....
Sorry you are having a bad day and year, I'm in the same boat...Here's to wishing 2006 brings us nice surprises....
Chantal
Re:torn AmyMarie1972: Hi Defuzer,
Also sending you a big [size=4"> HUG[/size"> .
You hand in there, it will get better.
We are all here for you.
Amy
Re:torn tigger: hey defuzer
we're in the same hell, i could have written that almost word for word myself.
Hang in there buddy
tig
