Re:So scared! links9814: We all mistakes in life even if we don't mean to. I wrote my wife an email yesterday were I said every mean thing in the book, I was angry and hell yes I regret it.
I know it's hard but like sourpuss said you said sorry and Wed is a new day. As for the crying I'm still doing that myself so I'm not much help there, I just sleep when I'm not crying.
Re:So scared! fiz: We did end on better terms when the phone call ended and she said when she got home we could talk more on the instant messenger. But I forgot to add one thing. She was pissed off the most because she thought it was an attempt of mine to force her back with me. I think that on a sub consiouse level it was an attempt to make her feel so hopeless she would want to come back to me. I feel bad just because of that. I didint want it to be that way but it ended up sounding like that. I feel sick to my stomach now and still crying on and off when I stop working on something. I feel like I'm back to where I was 3 months ago when we first broke up.
Re:So scared! sourpuss: deep breath, fiz.
it's a setback, but i doubt it's a deal breaker. you both said things you probably didn't mean.
you've apologized, she's (hopefully) accepted it. everyone has bad moments.
get a good night's sleep and start over tomorrow.
So scared! fiz: I think I messed up bad tonite. I talked to people and they told me things that wernt really true and I ambushed my exgf with them just before she left with my son. I confronted her about all the money I been giving her and stuff and how I was done with it. Because these people I talked to told me she said she wasnt woried about keeping a job because I would save her and because my emotions where high I let it mess with me and I ambushed her with it all. Soon after she called me all pissed off and was threatening to make me pay all this extra shit and I would only get my son every other weekend and alll that. Keep in mind I felt expremely bad right after i did it and went inside to instant message her to opolagize. Anyways I manage to settle her down and fix things but I dont think I helped our progress to getting back together. I'm so scared it might never happen now. I fear I screwed it all up for good. We talked about her new guy which say says is not her boyfriend. Everytime we talk I find more things out about things I used to do wrong. Like drilling her about guys. I know in the deepest part in my heart she would never cheat on me. But I let that little green bug get the best of me a few times before and messed us up.
The real bad thing is I gave her a poem just before I blew up at her. So she probably wont even let it sink in because of that. I fell so bad right now and I cant stop crying. I blew up in an attempt to selfishly hurt her and I ended up hurting myself so bad. Man I feel so bad right now. Like lower then the lowest scum on the earth.
