Dear me...again
Why is it that you claim to have let go of your past....but you hesitate to embrace your whole future. Why is it that you have such a great capacity to love but sometimes feel as though you don't deserve love yourself. Why is it that, knowing that you fell quite hard and far in your life, after picking up the pieces again and coming farther than they'll ever know... You, in a way, let them decide your worth. Why is it that just because you've made mistakes.... you think when you are by yourself... That everyone would be better off without you. Why is it that a part of you is scared to love because you've already ruined your life and a few others that you think it'll be better if you can't ever ruin someone else's life again. Why is it that when this falls through...(because nothing lasts forever) ...that you plan on running... not sure where ..just anywhere. as far as your money takes you. Then, settle down long enough to get together more money and run again. You spend your life hiding because why?
You know youre smart.... but just because you like to smile and laugh...and joke around. People think you don't have a brain at all. Just because you don't open up to a lot of people.... and think more than talk sometimes...they think youre timid and scared...like a mouse.....
Well me..... This cat has claws.... shes reserved because shes learned to be cautious.... She'll always land on her feet.... and it's about d@mn time you remember that. You may not be book smart but you've got common sense... You may not have a lot of friends but at least the ones you do have....actually listen .... and actually care....
Yeah you've made mistakes cat...but curiosity hasnt killed you yet...So...be curious enough to take complete control of your life again. You're only 21 you have plenty more years ahead of you. Your heart is bound to break again....but you'll heal. Maybe be left with more battle wounds but thats life kitty kat....live and learn....and don't be scared.
~Kat
