To my son and daughter. dreamerpoet: Dear kids,
I know this has been really hard for you and that you do not understand. I know how scary it is to watch your parents fight and not be able to do anything about it.
I am sorry for all the hateful things you heard said between your father and I. I am sorry that you have seen it blend over into the physical. My heart broke when you told me son, that it scared you when we argued. Please forgive me for failing to protect you from all of this. I should have taken a stand long ago and left but I did not. Please forgive me when I get impatient and short or forget that I am losing precious time never to be regained if I were to waste a day with you guys. It will be okay I promise and even though our little family is broken, it is still good. I will never leave you and when you feel scared I promise to hold you, when you cry I promise to wipe your tears, when you laugh I will laugh with you.
Son:
You are my little man, the love of my life. I treasure you! You make me smile and with wonder I can glimpse the man behind your child's face. You make me see the world with new eyes. And even though I may yell sometimes or get impatient there is nothing more important than to spend time with you. I am sad to see you go to kindergarten, this is the beginning of it all....you will grow up and grow away eventually but never forget that I love you. I am proud of all you do and the way you need to have everything explained to you. You are tender hearted and strong. A little bit of a drama queen but you came by that honestly ;).
I promise that there will be no more fights for you to be afraid of, adults do not always agree but they should never be mean to each other. I promise to spend time with you both teaching and learning. I promise to cuddle you when you need it and let go when you are ready. Until then my sweet boy I will continue to stand by your bed and gaze in awe at the gift that was given to me.
Daughter:
You are my joy and my delight and the source of all grey hair to come....LOL. I admire your tenacity and independance more than it drives me crazy. You want to always do for yourself and that is a good trait and I promise to teach you when to compromise and let someone help you. My sweet dimpled angel I know that you are too young to understand and my heart grieves for the lack of a father in your life. I am sorry that you will never know what it was when things were good. Your cheeky little smile and even your sassy no while you wave your finger at me never fail to lighten my heart. I promise to be more understanding of your strong-willed nature and I also promise I will help you shape it. I will spend more time reading and snuggling with you. I promise not to let you get lost in the shuffle of taking care of business. Please reminde me everyday with your cheeky little wag that I am getting grumpy as all adults do and I will scoop you up and take you out to play. I am not perfect but I will do my best to teach you to respect yourself, set boundaries and be successful. As I hold your little hand I try as well to hold back the years and keep you my soft sweet little baby but as all things change so will you but always remember that I love you.
My life is complete because of the two of you. You make it a joy to get up every day and making you happy lightens my heart. I am so glad that God gave you to me!!!!!!!! We will make it through this and I promise there will be better days.
Re: To my son and daughter. JazzBaby: Without a doubt, that is the sweetest thing I've read in a long, long time. And here I thought I was done crying for the day.
Re: To my son and daughter. dreamerpoet: I just might start again myself.... :)
Re: To my son and daughter. scooter4560: Im trying to hold it in............... not working
My boys are the thing that makes my heart tick at the moment and i hope they will relise Daddy didnt want to split us up
Re: To my son and daughter. inthemiddle: That was beautiful...thanks for the cry! :)
