cuddling vent! BabygirlM: im venting because last night was the FIRST night in MONTHS that i have gotten to sleep and slept straight through the night. and do you wanna know why??? because my damn ex (who is the devil) stopped over and spent the night and kinda (maybe me more than him) cuddled. it felt so good and comfortable and felt like home.
why??? why do i do this to myself!!! i still love him and he is a liar, cheater, scumbag, anything bad you can name...hes it! and now i probably wont hear from him again till the next time hes lonely. god why do i let him walk all over me. for one damn night of cuddling??!!!!!! >:( :'(
Re: cuddling vent! dreamerpoet: Don't be too hard on yourself, humans are programed for touch. We not only crave it, but it is necessary for life. (the premies in the hospital so much better when they are touched than those who are not). I know that nights for me are the hardest and I ended up buying myself a few body pillows so I could snuggle with myself....pathetic huh? It will get better.
((((HUGS)))))
Re: cuddling vent! JazzBaby: A million hugs to you...I had the same kinds of nights, with the same thoughts and feelings afterward. I finally broke down and put a TV in my bedroom...not a great habit, but it helped me a lot those first couple months.
Re: cuddling vent! BabygirlM: thanks girls. i just hate that my heart lets me have feelings for him. he's been vicious to me.
i have tried the tv thing, the snuggling with my pillows thing. i guess its just not the same, because i have not slept well since we seperated. and last night it was like i put my arm around his warm body and i was OUTTTT.
jut makes me so mad, cause i get attached and then he breaks me down again. like after last night, i feel like well maybe we could try a date this weekend or something. but i know he wont. hes got better things to do....or better girls.
Re: cuddling vent! dreamerpoet: I don't know if you saw my vent re: ex sex I have had a lot of the same problems. It finally came down to my son saying it scared him to hear us argue and I have never looked back. I can say at some point that will get better however I have gone to being a full blow insomniac so dont listen to me LOL ;)
