Re: angry at everything EssieDotCom: a lot of days I feel angry that I'm still married to this man, and love him very much, but cant change how he feels about me. If there is a book or something out there to tell me how i can keep my marriage from ending i'd pay top dollar for it. Sometimes i get so angry that i just wanna break something that belongs to him, or sell or or pawn it lol okay i know it sounds silly but really, I have a lot of angry days too. Hugs to you
angry at everything need2heal: I'm angry at myself, my stbxh and the world. I'm angry because my marriage didn't work out the way I wanted and I'm angry sorta relieved sorta angry again becoz i think he may with someone already (well serves me right b/c i left his cheating boozy ass) but most of all i'm angry because no one close to me is going through the same thing and therefore doesn't understand my situation. i'm angry becoz of the pitiful looks i get from ppl and i'm angry because i hate when im lonely and missing his cheating boozy ass now i'm angry at myself for even thinking about wanting his cheating boozy ass back! hm..... feels much better!!
I hate days like today when you know you want to shout out and express your feelings, but somethings holding me back. I hate the fact that I had to leave him because of his emotional abuse and booze filled weekends and then having to really forgive him for cheating on me three times (that I am sure of) and the fact that I can't help either of us. I hate having to hurt...... blah blah blah blah blah... :-X :P
Re: angry at everything jimloveless: it's something only time can fix, N2H. allow that time to pass and just ride out this storm for now. don't be angry at yourself, just batton down the hatches and do your best to be patient while it rages around you.
i'd suggest finding some sort of physical outlet. join some sort of gym or fitness class like martial arts... yoga... pilates... or something like that. it's really helped me to start lifting weights. releasing that negative energy in a positive way is incredibly helpful.
Re: angry at everything need2heal: thanks Jim, ur a gem, and yes! I'm starting netball on Monday so watch out opposition!! todays a better day, even though I'm still at loggerheads with my younger sibling who's hating me being back at home. I just wish time would hurry up!!
Re: angry at everything JazzBaby: Need2, I could quote your entire post and just say ditto to all that! I have days where I'm just so angry with myself for caring about what he's doing and who he's doing it with, even though I know that if he called and said he wanted to come home, there would be no power on earth great enough to make me say yes. But then I feel all proud of myself for realizing I'm in a better situation now. But then I get all angry again. ;) Anyone who says that divorce doesn't bring out the bi-polar person in all of us is just crazy.
