ARGHHHHHH! sigkapgirl: I am fine most of the time, but today is just one of those days. What was so freaking wrong with ME? Was I that bad to live with? Was I not smart enough? Did I not love him enough? ARGHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH.
I hate feeling this way, and haven't felt like this for a long time. I just don't understand what the hell I did and why it was so bad, and why he had to find whatever I was lacking with someone else. GRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRR.
Stupid mf'ing son of a gd b!tch.
Okay. I feel better.
Re: ARGHHHHHH! Kermie: Thanks, saved me a lot of typing!! ;D
Re: ARGHHHHHH! jillieb44: I hear ya.
This same feeling washes over me some days when I pick up my kids and teh ex is just being a total a$$. I *still* don't know what the he** I did to make him hate me so much.
Jillie
Re: ARGHHHHHH! jimloveless: the way i see it is like this: whoever the person was that she left doesn't have to be me. i can change. i'm willing and capable of being whoever I want to be. I'm looking back at my life and seeing the things that I didn't like about me and I'm fixing them.
what she thought of those things, I'll never know. She never told me. But i'm going to be as perfect as I can get now. She knows what she walked out on. What she doesn't know is how much stronger I am now, and exactly what it is that she is missing.
the simple answer, TH is that he was screwed up in the head. I hear that all the time and I believe it. leaving/cheating doesn't have anything to do with the leavee/cheatee. it's totally a problem in the leaver/cheater. it's their inability to forgive even the simplest things. it's their inability to think of anyone but themselves. i pity these people, sort of. so long as they're unwilling to give, they'll never know what love feels like.
Re: ARGHHHHHH! Lome: James is so correct!
I am sorry that it is going poorly today for you.....hugs!
