Pity party for one. shannon: As weird as STBX is acting, I am day by day losing the desire to even want to be with him at all. I am consumed lately though with the thought and regret that I don't have more children. I'm nearing the age of no return and I know that when or even IF I find anyone else, I'll be too old for more children and that hurts.
I know that sounds stupid.
Shan
Re:Pity party for one. PiscesGoddess: First of all I want to say I love your dr suess quote..that is one of my favorites..
As for you post, I dont think it sounds stupid AT ALL.. I have children also and would like to have another.. and i too am afraid I wont get the chance. My ex and I tried for awhile to have another child..and thankfully now, someone was watching and we didnt. But, I am afraid ..I will never find someone I trust enough to have another baby with..especially since the fathers of my other children are such losers.. ::) but, just like me, you cant focus on that right now, you have to focus on the ones you have and be thankful, and do what you can to get out of this bad situation you are in. If it is meant to happen , it will again. I truly believe that, or else I dont think I would get through the days sometimes. Women are having children at much later ages these days.. and who knows where your mind is going to be in a few years, or few months.. You can never forsee what is in front of you..just stay strong til you get there.. Hang in there sweetie.. I understand..
Hugs
Pisces
Re:Pity party for one. shannon: Thanks! I took Cole to see Cat in the Hat this weekend. I loved Dr. Suess as a kid and he's no exception.
I'm am not talking about having more kids with STBX (shudder). I have a 5 year old son and if he is all I have I'll thank God every day.
Shan
Re:Pity party for one. EZ: hi Shan
i agree with what the Goddess said your not too old and you do not know what is waiting ahead for you.
btw how was the movie cause i want to take my son this weekend or maybe i just want to go ok. i love green eggs and ham
Re:Pity party for one. Safetykc: I agree Shannon. I have no children myself. The two children I was helping to raise were my STBX wifes from a previous marriage so now its just me and the kitties and has been a hard change for me.
But you ARE so not to old...so you may have more children in your future. My boss lost his 10 year old son a few years back to Leukemia...and he has a daughter who is 13 now...Well he just had a baby last year when his wife is 39 and he was 41...I am sure after Jared's death he didn't think he would have any more children...but life is beautiful as well as tragic and now John Jared is hear to brighten all our lives...so you never know what twists and turns down life's path you will go. If Cole ends up being your only child, llove and cherish him all the more for it. And don't forget you are NOT that old, and you could always adopt you know someday if you are...lots of babies looking for good homes. ;D I have had some close friends over the years who were adopted as children...
This subject makes me miss my stepkids... :P The one good that came out of my marriage besides getting to know and love my stepchildren was to find out that I really like the joys and parenting...yeah yeah...sometimes it is hard and its not all fun and games...but the rewards of helping raise and guide those little lives is awesome. So I know now I want to have a that family life with children in my life again and would like to see what I could create as my own biological children. Still getting used to that idea. I had given up on it because my X had her tubes tied so couldn't have any more children....
Hmmmm...A little Safety running around singing and dancing and annoying the heck out of everyone... ??? Could be nice someday. LOL... ;) ;D
