what I wanted 8 months ago I don't want now kimura321: Well, the bomb dropped 9 months ago- the "I love you but am not in love with you" type of thing. Two months ago we were officially seperated. Now she is acting all friendly now- she's trying to give me career advice that will lock me in the same track as her. A mutual aquaintance says I could probably have her back easily.
9 months ago I wanted this so bad- a second chance to make it work.
Now I just want an apology for what she put me through and to go my own way.
It's not easy being alone sometimes, and the few people I've dated didn't give me the feeling my ex did back in the day.
I just don't want to do the safe thing or the easy thing and try to get back in the same garbage I'm still digging my way out of.
I'm getting comfortable in my own skin and have done more with my life in the past months than I did with my years with her.
I'd be lying if I said I still didn't have feelings for her. I do. But the innocence is gone and the resentment is more than the love I have for her.
I don't know- maybe I built up my walls too well- or maybe I'm seeing things right for the first time. deep inside I feel that the best is yet to come with my life(so far- with all the pits and valleys- life has gotten better-way better).
I'm at a crossroads and I don't want to regret not trying again. But the last few months have made me realize I want more. I just don't want the pieces to fit- I want the machine to work. I guess the difference between a fusion vice a union.
Should I give up what I'm gaining so far to try and get back what I had?
Re: what I wanted 8 months ago I don't want now Older Guy: [size=16pt"> [color=navy"> KEEP ON TRUCKING BROTHER ! [/color"> [/size">
Good work....now keep moving forward......
Bob
Re: what I wanted 8 months ago I don't want now turning leaf: You've successfully extricated yourself out of the abyss you were in when she left you. You have moved on and proved to yourself that there's a world outside of her. Do you want to go back to the same abyss, test the waters again, have your stance shaken ORRRRRRR face the future with a new attitude, a new you?
Re: what I wanted 8 months ago I don't want now Failedjedi: RUN !!!
BE FREE !!!
Feel the pudding in your hair :D
Re: what I wanted 8 months ago I don't want now Lumpy: Sounds like you know what you want and have sorted through your emotions. Kinda freeing isn't it? Despite the fact that we still care for them, we realize that we need more. The head is finally ruling the heart.
