Don't feel like I can cope kfc75: I am feeling so crappy, it has been almost 4 months since the STBX dropped the D-bomb, and this last weekend she moved out of the house, today the house sale closes, and here I am sitting in an empty house all alone, the house she and I had put so much love and effort into making a home, but now it's just an empty shell, I walk the rooms, and cry for the memories in each one, my sons bedroom is the most painful, how could she break apart a family like this with no warning? She was here until 2am last night packing the last few things and cleaning, I have been up all night moving my last few things to my new place. And now I just feel as empty as the house. When she left the house for the last time at 2am this morning all she said was "see ya later", she didn't even look back at the house and take a moment, maybe I am just being too sentimental, but this house has been a big part of my life, it seem it was just as easy for her to toss aside as it was for her to toss me aside. I want to cry but it feels like there are no tears left, I need to be strong and make it thru the day, signing the papers at the closing, then, unpacking all the millions of boxes at my new house, but all I really want to do is find a rock to crawl under and never come out. I wish I had someone to talk to but I can reach any of my family on the phone, and the worst part is I am not going to have any internet or phone at the new place until thursday, I am going to be completely isolated, I am so scared, I wish someone would help me.
Re: Don't feel like I can cope EssieDotCom: awwwwwwwww big hugs to you
Re: Don't feel like I can cope Samarra: Hey....hang in there....Thursday will be here soon enough!
Wish there were something better I could say...just know that this feeling won't last, and alot of us will be thinking about you until you can get back on-line.
BIG (((((HUGS))))))
Re: Don't feel like I can cope Ilosther: Man, I really wish I could head down there during the week to help you out. This whole deal sucks, and add moving and unpacking to it, just seems like it's too much to handle. But you will, you'll do it. When I was getting so pissed at mine for coldness, I would just go to my place and unpack, and do physical labor. It worked. But now, I'm all unpacked, all settled in, and I feel alone, until my son comes over.
I can't even write this part without getting choked up inside, but when I drive by our old house, the first house we had together, right after we got married, the house we conceived our son in, the house we brought him home to, the house we had just shared so many good times together, intimitate times, fun times, parties, family gatherings......GOD, I feel like if we never sold that house maybe we would have avoided this whole breakup. And now on my computer I have all the pics from our past stored on it, and I catch myself viewing them, and just dying inside for all the memories we had together.
So, obviously, I have no words of wisdom here, just know you're not alone. You're not the only one going through this. New life is on the way, that's all I repeat to myself.
Re: Don't feel like I can cope Cowboy12: KFC hang in there buddy, be so good to yourself .. in the next few days.
Realise your feelings are ok for now, of course it's going to hurt terribly leaving all the memories behind, feel the sorrow, the pain etc....and let it go... have gratitude for what you still have your health, your kid/s.
Life will be enjoyable for you again, do something you haven't done for yourself in a while.
Hang in there buddy, see ya on OJAR thursday
