Today I put my contacts in PickingUpThePieces: I'm trying to focus on little steps. Baby ones, one at a time. My stbx came over last night to get more of his things. It's been a nightly thing. When we saw each other the other time (he came Mon. night but I wasn't here) it was pretty awkward. I've been doing so much thinking, and felt like I just wanted more answers about how he came to the decision to move out. So I asked. And he explained himself, that he felt like we were just making each other miserable, he'd been trying to work on his issues and felt like any steps he made weren't making me happy. he was unhappy, and in turn was making me unhappy. He felt that as many similarities as we have, there are just also too many differences, and those things won't change. he said it's not worth it to be miserable because of your own/others' expectations. We talked for a long time, about the feelings we've been having being separated, what to do with the house/things in it, etc. both of us cried, and at one point we were even able to laugh. neither of us hates the other, even after all the problems I still care about him and we both hope one day we can move past all this and hopefully come out friends on the other side. it just didn't work between us. I have some sense of peace after this talk, at least our separation/divorce will be as amicable as possible and we will be able to communicate about what needs to be done. I'm still hurting like hell, can't sleep right or eat, but I'm taking small steps. Like being able to put my contacts in today. last night I was able to take our pictures off the wall. Last night I couldn't take down the towel he used, but I could this morning. I cried, but I felt able to do it. I guess I just have to focus on these little things and that will help get me through it.
Re: Today I put my contacts in Samarra: It always is the little things that seem insurmountable......but you're doing a great job....what seems difficult today gets better tomorrow...or the next day.
I think from what you've said you have a chance to come out of this as friends.
Hang in there.....you'll make it!
((((HUGS)))))
