Re: Decisions... dgiirl: Feel, i'm sorry for so much pain you are going through. Divorce and separation is very hard, but sometimes it's through the difficult times where we become strong and learn more about ourselves and what we want out of life.
Right now, your husband has the best of both worlds. He has a girlfriend when he wants it, and he has a marriage and family when he wants that. It's not fair to either side, and he's the only one winning. You need to figure out where your boundaries are and stick to them. Having a part time husband is definitely no way to have a marriage. There's a great book called "Love must be tough". It explains a lot about your type situation and gives a solution to resolve it. I'd check it out at your local library and read it! It basically describes you have to stand up for yourself and decide what YOU want out of life. I know you are scared to lose your husband if you dont let him see this other girl, but you will lose him if you continue to do so too. He's going to start to lose respect for you and will eventually walk away. Read the book. It explains it a lot better than I can.
Decisions... Feel: [color=red"> [/color"> It's been almost 8 months of my husband and I being seperated... we have a little boy who can't stand to not see us together and when I look in my husbands eyes I know he still has a concience. But then I second guess myself again.
He had an affair, not sure when it actaully started, but this girl has done everything in her power to keep him in her grip... What I mean by this is she has gone to no estent to even say she will commit suicide. ( you are probably thinking what a crock but if there is aything that I do beleive still from him is that).
I love him dearly and I feel I can't make a decision to let go. Do I want to NO and YES! I feel I am in LIMBO and I feel he still wants tokeep me around.
I did make the first step to go see the lawyer but my husband gets the better of me. This isn't the man I married but he won't admitt to everything and I have tried numerous times to have him talk to me, and I have gone to no extent to have him return home before I feel I need to just go through with the seperation!
I am confused! I am uncomfortable with my decisions up to now. He still comes home and I feel like a fool by allowing this to go on this way. There have been times where he disappears, doesn't even call to see how his son is and then when he does call he is trying his best to act like nothing happened, this way he can see me. And I say me first because I think he uses his son as an excuse! He never takes our son by himself and when everything is set for him to do something with his son, he ends up telling me that I need to go along too... we are a family!
How can this be a family??? I am loving a life with my husband that feels more like a corting relationship!
I want to put this behind us and start fresh but how can I be sure. Everytime he leaves my site I wonder if he is using another phone to call her, if he sees her even if there only is those 5 minutes....
There is so much more but I just don't know where to start and what more to do!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! help please! :'(
Re: Decisions... helpmehelphim: You've been given some great advice already and I will put in my 2 cents worth...he has to cut contact with the other woman!
As the one who cheated, I am trying to help my husband cope and recover, and I cannot imagine his trying to accept what happened if I was not willing to sever any remaining relationship with the other man.
If it were a work situation, where contact could not be avoided, I would even suggest a job change!
It's got to be one way or the other, he can't keep you in limbo!
Re: Decisions... Lumpy: Have you pinned him down and told him how you feel? Don't be his puppet. Force him to make a decision one way or the other. It's either me or her. Divorce sucks but limbo is worse.
Re: Decisions... summerparis: Dear Feel, like it or not, you do need to make a decision, for your own well-being and for that of your child's.
You are allowing yourself to be walked all over because you are not declaring your boundaries. You are keeping yourself in limbo while your husband plays with your heart and emotions. I believe he is only prolonging the inevitable, possibly to ease his conscience.
In the future, you will realize that a man who would be willing to treat you, your son and your marriage like this is not worthy of your love.
Stand up for yourself and for your son. You have to let him know that this situation cannot continue. I hope I don't sound harsh. I don't mean to be. But a man who truly loves you has to show it with his behavior and his actions. A man who is committed to saving your marriage would cut off contact with his "friend." There's no ifs, ands or buts about it.
Best of luck Songbird
