I need everyones thoughts and advise PLEASE

I need everyones thoughts and advise PLEASE BarbJo: I have this need in my hart to talk to my STBXH.  I went to 2 different counseling appointments today.  A lot of things came out that I didn't even know were there about myself.  I don't know if you all know my story.  I do have a PFA in effect against him.  I just need to see and talk to him about were I am right now.  I want him to understand that I need to talk to him to help me get through this process.  Please tell me what everyone thinks about this and what I should do.  I am in desperate need to advise. 
Re: I need everyones thoughts and advise PLEASE kindhearted: Babrjo,

Do you know if he still loves you?
Re: I need everyones thoughts and advise PLEASE BarbJo: I don't.  A few months ago he told he he loves me in a way I will never know.  I don't think he loves me.
Re: I need everyones thoughts and advise PLEASE kindhearted: I'm sorry to here that. I'm going through a weird spot in my life as well right now as well. My wife an I are getting along very well but she still wants to leave me.
Sounds wierd ah! Actually it's our wedding anniversery today and she doesn't want to celebrate it. That sux bad!
Re: I need everyones thoughts and advise PLEASE BarbJo: At least you have some kind of relationship.  I don't even have that now.  I guess that is what I miss most.  Not being about to talk to him about this.  I know he has hurt me so much over the past few months.  I just have the feeling that I need to talk to him and let him know what kind of place I am in right now.  But I am affraid of being hurt.  I don't even what him to talk to me.  I just want him to listen.