God I hate her, I truly truly hate her Mr. Joshua: Warning : I have just been IM'ed by my stbxw regarding 2004 tax issues I am shaking becuase I hate talking to her SO much and I am really upset. If you are offended by bad language please skip the following:
I get IM'ed by my ex to figure out tax paperwork, she needs because she is "buying something big." I realized that during our initial separation, she forgot to add the W2's to our tax return, thus having them sent back to us. I as I always have played catch up because she was too fucking busy at work to care about ANY GOD DAMN THING IN HER LIFE OTHER THAN HERSELF. I may have mailed the return past the due date. I call and thankfully I did not, however our 600 DOLLAR RETURN never came due to a stae tax lien against her from 4 years prior. Becuase we filed jointly, I don't get anything either!!!! IF SHE FUCKING TOOK 2 SECONDS OF HER LIFE TO CONCENTRATE ON ANYTHING BUT HERSELF SHE WOULD COME TO REALIZE THAT!!!! She emailed me to browbeat me a while back about spending the tax return mind you she is currently making over half my salary!!
She is the epitome of her money grubbing, egotistical, work obsessed becuase I don't know how to have a real relationship fuckhead father, my ex father in law!! She comes from such BAD BAD BAD relationships. I told my parents we were married in a moment of desperation. We eloped and never told our folks. Her parents have yet to know and would probably disown her, thankfully mine are too loving and didn't.
I just shake and get flushed and remember all the hurt and anger I feel over being the guy she shit on to get to the top of her field. I feel used and discarded. I spend most of the day with her passing in my head, the few good times and than the pain. When she contacts me, I can be in no contact because it's too hard for me, I am a shaking tense necked, verge of tears fucking mess. I want to not fucking feel like a worthless disposable human being anymore. I won't give you the whole story anymore, you can check my old posts, but I poured my heart and sould into our marriage because I hoped I could achieve soemthing like my parents. 33 years, still in love, raised 2 great kids, one of which is pulling his hair out in anger and heartache. We could have had such a great thing but in her stubborn, self absorbed mind my world should focus on her happiness and contentment in addition to being the SUPERSTAR of the radio field that deserved to be on her arm. I CAN'T DO BOTH!!!!
I love everybody hear for even taking the minute to read this and possibly respond. I am in hurt mode and it really really sucks. I am an emotional guy, so I can't bottle this up and put on the straight face. I know so may of you are in tougher positions than I and please know my heart is with all of you in this time.
It will get better with time, I know it.
Josh
Re: God I hate her, I truly truly hate her sadaboutdad: Here is one thought that should make you kinda happy: You aren't with a self absorbed bi*ch anymore! You can get the person you deserve and build the life your parents have. You would have never had that life with her, and forcing it would have made you much much angrier as a person. Don't worry about her being self absorbed becasue s/a people implode on themselves. What happens to her when you aren't there, her folks aren't there, and she is alone with no one to turn to and no one to blame but herself? No man is an island, but you can make yourself one of the worst and most miserable people in the world trying, like your x/w. My advice is to get the best revenge possible and live happy the way you wanted to live with her, have friends, family, love, all the things she won't realize matters till too late.
Re: God I hate her, I truly truly hate her tyrogers: [quote"> It will get better with time, I know it.[/quote">
Repeat that to yourself over and over and over and over......
Sorry you are feeling so mad/sad/angry/hurt/etc. right now. Vent it all out and let it go. Makes you feel better when you do.
<<BIG BIG HUGS>>
BBH
Re: God I hate her, I truly truly hate her feelindown: Sorry Josh,
At this point in my life, all I can say is that Mean Women Suck!!!
I hope that helps you!
Re: God I hate her, I truly truly hate her feelingbetrayed: Well now maybee you can find a nice woman, we are out there! Sorry for all the hurt this woman put you through, money issues are tough. My husband makes over twice the amount I do and I work 2 jobs, but when we split he doesn't want to help me financially.
