Get out of my head!!

Get out of my head!! kittenpants: I want him out of my head.  I just don't want to think about him.  Thinking about him hurts.  I was doing so well, and now stupid stuff pops into my head.  I think about kissing him or how he smells.  I'd like to think that if he called and told me he was stupid and he does love me that I would be able to tell him that I just can't trust him, but I know I wouldn't...  I want to stop loving him.  Why do I love someone who hurt me so much, so often?  What is wrong with me that I would want to go back for more?  I feel like that woman, you know, who has been hit by her husband time and again and keeps going back.  The thing is, I know I don't deserve the way he's treated me, I know it is wrong, but I love him so much and I am willing to forgive.  But, I think that I am stupid to be willing to forgive...  I don't even know if he thinks the things he has done are wrong.  ARGHHH!!!!!!!
Re: Get out of my head!! dgiirl: *hugs* i can totally relate to this post.  Everything you've written Ive said over and over and over again I'm sick of it.  All this time, I was worried he wanted ME out of his life.  Today, I want HIM out of my life.  I so want to say that right to his face.  I want to let go, and tell him to go fly a kite.

Re: Get out of my head!! sadaboutdad: You sound like your going around in circles!! I think you should really try to get things off your mind.  I know there are reminders of all the good stuff around you... so maybe you should start keeping reminders of the bad things too.  What did he do that really drove you nuts?  Any physical reminders lying around that you could put out to remind you why he was a bad guy? (Maybe a really bad birthday gift, or a thoughtless card)  Also you should have something designated to think about when you start thinking of him at all.  For example if you are out driving and miss the way he put his turn signal on or something like that put in the CD of the song "She F*cking hates me" and sing along thinking of him... hehe (that's my mom's theme song... she requests it and dedicates it to my dad on the radio :)  )  I know your busy with school so do some studin' or writin' when he really gets ya down.  Excercise also REALLY helps.  I do kung-fu and I just picture the people giving the most trouble in my life catching all of my kicks and punches.  

Another idea is to  make a list of all the reason why you are WAY better off with out him, sign it, laminate it and keep it in your wallet or purse.  Writing things down makes things more ligitimate, i.e. a written thank-you rather than a verbal one.  It will also be a way you can remind yourself in time of sorrow that he really was a rotten guy...

Love is an addiction, you need to break the habit
Re: Get out of my head!! skooz: [quote author=sadaboutdad link=topic=19527.msg177888#msg177888 date=1128019758">
Love is an addiction, you need to break the habit.
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I've heard that before. I'm starting to think it's true and the thought is quite scary.

Now, about those memories... Don't let them get to you. When you feel sad because of what was good before, let it happen for a little while and then try to move forward and take your thoughts somewhere else, concentrate on your present day.

Hugs,
F.
Re: Get out of my head!! Erin: I'm right with you sweetie!

I agree with what everyone is saying, but I can't practice what they preach yet. I'm just not there...

It's like you were putting my thought out there. I've been comparing myself to a battered woman to these past couple of days.

I find typing helps.  The more that you put it out there, it seems to decrease it's effect in you.

PM me if you need to! :)