This is new for me, and it kind of sucks summerparis: (I'm paraphrasing the name of one of Blazin's old threads)
Re: This is new for me, and it kind of sucks Smiley17: Awww... Songbird! We all go through times where we'd rather turn a blind eye than deal with the problems buried deep inside. I'm one of those people too. But instead of partying, I tend to talk, and talk, and talk, and talk. Mainly to men, but I do it.
I had a time where I serial dated too, although my heart was the one that broke, I still did it as a means to "ignore" my inner issues.
We learn over time that those behaviors don't do us any good, to a point. Your behaviors have apparently run their courses, and now you see that they're not the best for you. You've learned a lesson here, now you're facing your issues. You'll feel better once you get up to the top of that hill, and you'll walk away with a sense of accomplishment that you never really had before.
Keep your head up, and keep looking on the inside. One tiny baby step at a time. You'll get there! :-*
Re: This is new for me, and it kind of sucks summerparis: THANK YOU!!! :-* xox Songbird
Re: This is new for me, and it kind of sucks browngreen: Songbird,
I think it's great that you caught it and are ready to face it.
The one good thing that came out of our reconcilliation farce (summer 05) was that I realized what my problems were-- relating to the M, to my H, and what were individually mine.
Most of my unhappiness came form the M, and relationship with the H. That was good to realize. I think I'm really OK on my own, but I do have a pretty serious problem in that I'm a free spirit, which by nature is at odds with the institution of M. My problem is that I'd really like to give and recieve unconditional love from a man and maybe even be married again. Resolving this balance isn't easy.
I think I might finally have met someone who will let me be myself and like me anyway.
Keep it up.
BG
