it was yesterday, but....... amola: ok, this one is going to be harder to explain....but i have to share it with everyone.....
even though i'm not working during the day right now, jared is still going to daycare. the girls are in kindergarten and preschool about 15 miles from here. the ex usually brings the girls back to town and i pick up jared. yesterday, he asked me to pick the girls up because he had to work late. fine, whatever. i'll waste my gas so that you can save yours.
well, i picked jared up first, even though i usually get him *after* the girls if i pick them all up. we went and got the girls, and were heading out of that town to come back here. it was a beautiful sunny day, with a deep blue sky and big white poofy clouds...light breeze...you get the idea. as we were driving back, all of a sudden i was just overcome with this feeling of..... i don't know....peace? happiness? contentment?
it was just a feeling that everything is going to be ok.
yeah, i'm doing this alone for the most part. yeah, my ex has the kids half the time, which i hate, but it does give me some much-needed "me time". i don't have a job, which is starting to stress me out a bit, but it'll work out. t is basically non-existent as far as this baby is concerned, and that's fine with me. i have my house, i have my car (such as it is), and i have a man in my life that makes me so incredibly happy that i can't even begin to explain it. he might be 1600+ miles away, but he has shown me more love and support than my ex or t ever did, and they were right here. i know that we're going to be together at some point. yes, sooner would be better than later, but i know that it's going to work out.
everything is going to work out. somehow. i really just feel like things are starting to fall into place. and even with the horrible night that i had last night/this morning (see vent-o-board) i still feel pretty darned good right now. :)
just had to share....even though it probably makes no sense to anyone....lol
Re: it was yesterday, but....... summerparis: No need to explain. I think most of us have experienced those feelings, even if fleetingly. I'm glad that you shared it with us. xox Songbird
Re: it was yesterday, but....... AfterMath: Makes perfect sense to me. ;)
