Re: More of a whine really........ WhiskeyGirl: Alonewith2, of course your more than welcom to join us :D you too wills ;)
Wills, I have asked myself what I am holding out for....thats whats so frustrating....I really don't know....I suppose I will know when I find it :) and yeah, I am happy, its just that....I guess I finally feel ready for a new relationship....a real one, not just the superficial crap I have passed for dating thus far. And so I start to wonder if mabey I will never find that person. I'll get over it, this isn't the first time I've had a moment and I'm sure it wont be the last. I have enjoyed being single, I have adjusted, I am comfortable....but somethings changed and I do long for the closeness of a meaningful relationship, its time to switch gears again I guess and that just brings up questions....questions for which I have no answers, I hate unanswered questions ;)
Thanks for the compliments, you always have something nice to say :) I appreciate it, thank-you :)
Lumpy....We are making an adult film! Where have you been? sheesh! ::) keep up, would ya? LOL ;D
Blazin' :) Good to see ya.....I was just starting to think I should check for a pulse ::) and thank-you too :) I do wonder about the common sense thing though ::) lol Its easier to have when you are looking at someone elses situation....in my own, it seems, common sense goes out the window more often than not.
Thanks you guys :D
More of a whine really........ WhiskeyGirl: So, as I bundled the kids up tonight to feed the horses, I realized its becoming pretty hard to deny winter's coming. Its freaking cold, especially the early morning chores, the days are getting shorter, its dark before we are done dinner and dammit I just feel blah. *sigh* Summer is the season to be single, its all beaches and parties and fun....it seems like theres single people everywhere, then winter sets in and suddenly freedom feels strangely empty and the long nights increasingly lonely :( Why is that? I know how it will go, this isn't my first winter alone...my little peace of heaven freezes up, gets covered with snow, the work is cold and tiring and there's less "fun" Seems everybody's hibernating by a fire.....as will I, but the only difference is I will do it alone. Yeah, the first month or so I will plug along with a smile on my face....I remember my first winter alone, I enjoyed the quiet, the peace, I loved every minute of it, it was comforting....last yr started to get to me about half way through.....and now I wonder if this year will be even worse? Don't get me wrong, my life is rich and full, I have so much to be thankful for....but why does winter seem like the season to be a "couple" why does it seem so lonely? I suppose this type of loneliness is better than the alternative...at least its not that pathetic and helpless feeling of missing someone who is sitting right beside you. I don't believe I could ever feel as lonely as I did for the last stretch of my marriage.
hmph, now I'm just rambling, I hate feeling like this....like somethings missing. Its been 2 yrs since my ex left, I am tired of everyone asking me what I am waiting for, why am I still single? I don't know what I am waiting for, or who I am waiting for....all I know is I haven't found it yet. sometimes I can't help but wonder if it even exists *sigh*....mabey I am "unpairable" :-\
Anyhow.....just thought I'd have a little woah is me moment......I figure this is the place to do it.
Argh, I'm supposed to go out tonight, and I'm just not into it.....might have something to do with the fact it was my brother-in-laws birthday last night and I overindulged (understatement of the year) hmmm, I guess I should get my ass in gear.....back to the land of the living..........
*sigh*.....anybody else dreading winter?
Re: More of a whine really........ PiscesGoddess: Oh honey! Im dreading HATING winter.. and Im married..but that also means more time being locked in the house together realizing our problems :-\
Whine Whine Whine away.. I will bring the cheese and we can whine together.. I know how you feel in a way.. I wonder.. as this marriage disengrates before my very eyes if I will ever get it right.. If I am either destined to be alone or married to some dickhead for the rest of my life.. the in betweens are far and few... :-\
Winter sucks... period.. cold lonely and everything is dead.. no grass..bare trees ..dark all the damn time.. ughh!
I say we hibernate til spring..how bout it?
:-*
Pisces
Re: More of a whine really........ WhiskeyGirl: Hibernating til spring sounds fantastic right about now......specially snuggled up with you and the twins! ;) lol....thanks for the smile darlin' :)
I'm gonna slide myself into this ridiculous costume and go to this halloween bash ::) mabey I can laugh and dance and "pretend" so well that I'll even convince myself for, a short time, that nothing is lacking in my life.
I'm good at that.......
Re: More of a whine really........ alonewith2: I want to whine and hibernate, too!! I love looking at winter, but that's about it. It feels lonelier for me because I don't like to venture outside of the house much. I'm a warm-blooded animal and always COLD! So I like to stay right here in my nice warm house! But then I get cabin fever, stir crazy and the like before winter is over!
I guess if I had a nice man to share the warm house with, I wouldn't mind being cooped up all winter...... ::)
