Happy anniversary Thinkin: Well today marks my one-year anniversary and I don’t know what I’m feeling. I know I feel numb, I know I’m confused and I know she still will do anything to have me back. For months that’s what I wanted but now I don’t feel I’d ever be happy with someone who broke my trust since I have such issues with trust. Not sure this is much of a vent but didn’t really know where to put this, I’m not looking for advice, I haven’t been for a while now and that’s why I don’t post anymore, I have no advice to give cause I don’t even understand my own issues so how could I ever tell someone else how to handle things. Halloween used to be my favorite time of year but now it’s been ruined for me, on top of that I gotta go to work. I guess I just gotta blow it off and move on with what I have got to do today like any other day. I guess feeling numb isn’t that bad, I guess it could be worse.
Re: Happy anniversary jadedangel: [color=navy"> I have no advice --- but I know the crappy feeling you are having. I just want to say --- who cares if it is a vent or not -- if you want to type it ... type it.
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Re: Happy anniversary manda: [quote author=Thinkin link=topic=21048.msg196707#msg196707 date=1130686016"> and I know she still will do anything to have me back. For months that’s what I wanted but now I don’t feel I’d ever be happy with someone who broke my trust since I have such issues with trust.
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I understand this most of all!!
I just wanted to say that sometimes it's just support that you can use from the board. Don't give up on posting. A while back you posted and helped me. I've been looking for you but you disappeared.
Anywho... Here's a ((((hug))))
Re: Happy anniversary PiscesGoddess: Thinkin!!
You know this morning I thought of you and remembered it was your anniversary and wondered how you were doing with it :-\
I know your not really venting and you dont really come around much..but dont shut yourself off k? Alot of people here appreciate your presence and you dont have to have anything to say..half the time I'm here and dont know what to post :P
anyway that was totally off topic.. time for tough love.. I know your numb..you've been there for awhile..and you seem to have a constant supply of novacaine for your emotions with her..I dont blame you for not trusting her..but a shot in the dark here..its like when she first started coming back around you were like..I dont need her..im seeing girl X and Im fine with it..but dont want the wife to be hurt..and you went on like this for awhile and I think the more the wife comes around ...theres a part of you that wants to give it one more try.. Honey if we give up on everything and everyone that hurt us in life we would just sit a corner somewhere alone weaving baskets...and you know that I"M not the most trusting person in the world either..but (just my perspective...) seems like its starting to get harder to fight off the feelings..than give up...(???)
We all make mistakes and she would have to earn back your trust big time..and I for one would never mininmize your pain..but break it down and remember.. as far as you know and she says..this woman you have loved for 10 years.. just "kissed" him...a kiss..temporary insanity.. so... if she still loves you as she says she does.. then would she HONESTLY make that same mistake again?
Im just sayin if there is a spot that loves her still fighting through that tough exterior to get out..try it out.. Remember..life is to short..and you seem unhappy :-\
(If Im totally off base feel free to beat me with a stick)
miss you!
Pisces
Re: Happy anniversary notheonlyone: Sorry youre down, i made the mistake of calling the our aniversary the first year we were seperated..i think ijust wanted her to know i handt forgotten...her response. "Thanks" :-\ i felt like a jerk. i dont hink you will feel the same next year around this time.
