Weak......

Weak...... brandyrobin710: Why am I so weak again?  I was doing so well for a week and now I've had this relapse.  I just want to talk to him or see him.  I haven't cried in awhile and I'm crying again.  I thought time was supposed to heal and I was supposed to be getting better!  I was actually doing okay until our town put up the Christmas lights.  It just reminds me so much of last Christmas and how we were together and in love.  I know it is a bad idea to try to contact him (I've been in no contact for almost 3 weeks).  He moved out almost a month ago.  We didn't part on the best of terms and I do want to clear the air with him.  We have some hard feelings that I want to clear up.  I know that you guys are going to tell me not to call but I really do feel bad about our split and how it happened.  Do you think it is a bad idea to try to call him next week?  I would make it brief and friendly with no mush.  What do you guys think?
Re: Weak...... manda: I get weak every weekend.  Through the work week, I am pretty strong.  But then the weekend comes...(and today I'm home for Veteran's Day) 

I understand the roller coaster better than I'd like. 

I think calling is okay but others will tell you not to.  It's ultimately up to you.  I think it would be best if you pick a time of day that you are usually stronger.  And write down a feew things you will say and a few that you definitely won't say... 

Sorry you are having a rough time, Brandy.
Re: Weak...... PnR: brandy I know this feeling all to well. I won't give you any advice cause I'm in the same situation and haven't a clue what to do. But if you do call remember to stay strong and not show you are upset.
take care. 
Re: Weak...... lilly10: Brandy,

Strong one moment then weak the next is the story of my life right now and I'm sure most people here can relate. My ex and I did not end on the best of terms either to say the least. I like you wanted to just talk to him about things even if it was nothing at all. I just wanted to feel like I did not hate him. Evertime we talk (except for the last time I saw him?) we end up in a small war with eachother we just dont see eye to eye yet so I wind up even more hurt. If you think you can keep the conversation pleasent then give him a call but I warn you it is so very hard to do if someone has questions unanswered or was left extremly hurt. Think it over and see how you feel next week. No matter what any of us say if you really feel the urge to talk to him you will do it and then be able to see how good or bad of an idea it will be. Good Luck!!
Re: Weak...... Lumpy:   I agree with random in that you should try writing him as opposed to calling. That way you can kinda control the emotional aspect.