wish id clean my clock faster

wish id clean my clock faster philadelphia: I had all intentions on being with you...But from the start i wasnt completely honest...Then i started when we talked last week...It was hard for me to tell you the things that you already knew...The wrongs that ive done...You helped me in a big way but i left what i call the right trun slower than you needed...Im turning left more in life but its not good for you and I...Ive hurt you deeply and i cant bear the sight of me looking at you...I cant look into your eyes withouit wanting to hurt myself...You can brush it off maybe easy but its killing me...

It was hard for me to tell you that for the past 10 years ive been fighting sex addiction...Complasent is what you called it...To me its part of my never ending recovery...Yes i am actually asamed that I donthav ethe control that normal people do...I had all and every intention of makeing this work...I had my reasons for  staying out that night and lieing to you...They were not good ones but i know that now i made the wrong desision.

I really think that you wont even speak to me now...for i dont even know what to say...I couldnt and still cant tell you about what i fend off...I tossed hints but kept them very faint...You were good for me and id like to think for other than the wrongs ive done that i was good for you...I will never foirget you but i will do my best to leave you without me holding you back...exactly how i handle that i truly dont know.................