Hurts so bad again damn53: My ex-wife and I have been conversing alot lately, and it has been as if nothing ever went bad. Tonight, I called her and asked her to come over, she said that she didn't want to, abd that it just makes it worse when I ask her, and that she isn't sure what she wants, but she is sure that it isn't a relationship with me at this point. I feel as if my heart has been torn out of me again, and I don't know what to do except sit here and drown my sorrows in beer. I see it in her eyes, but her actions don't match what I see, it just isn't there. Maybe I am seeing what I want, maybe she is seeing what she wants. But damn, I feel so horrible right now. All I can do is sit here, listen to depressing music, and feel like hell. Thanks for listening, I still love her so much.
Re: Hurts so bad again Falcon554: I know how you feel man I really do. My wife and I talk all the time but I have to remind myself that her words mean nothing its her actions that I have to deal with. So I dont let myself feel anything anymore. I did for 4 months, I just cant do it anymore.
If her actions change I would take her back in a second no matter what she has done in the past 6 months, but thats a HUGE IF, I dont see it happening anytime soon if ever.
Re: Hurts so bad again jadedangel: [color=navy"> Damn ..
I know it's heart aching and I am sorry you have to keep dealing with that. It is especially hard when she gives you false hope and then pulls it away ... maybe she likes that control? Only thing I can say though -- you are allowing her to walk all over your heart. Maybe if you show her what she doesn't have anymore, she will wise up before she loses it. Why should you be subject to her emotions?
I know you hurt .. I know you love your ex -- been there.. unfortunately still there. But -- your letting her have the rope to sit and keep pulling at your heart. Also ... turn off that depressing music!
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Re: Hurts so bad again husky: All the conversing you are having with her is causing you to backslide in your recovery process. It will help if you don't talk to her. And like what Angel said, she may wise up when she realises she is really losing you. Being easily available to her will make her take you and your heart for granted.
I know how much it hurts when someone u love tells you that they do not want to be in a relationship with you. They simply want to be good friends. Is your heart able to accept this? Worse, what if one day she finds someone new and tells you about it because you are supposed to be her good friend?? Trust me, when that day comes, you will feel a hundred times worse than what you are feeling now.
You can probably start by cutting down the contact you have with her, if going cold turkey on her seems sudden. Then you can let things take their own course from there.
