Moving on techick: Well, I finally got it through my thick skull!!! And my soft heart:(
You are a liar and you don't care about anyone, I GET that now *sigh* though I really didn't WANT to get that. I have known for a while now, but I guess last night I was thinking about how you don't even care about your son, the 11 yr old, and when he'd be staying with us, you didn' care what he did, if he had anything to do, I was to feed him, you never even looked to see if he WAS fed, you didn't set up anything for his birthday.....you just don't care about anyone, not more then you do yourself and that is.....I don't know, I was going to say a lot, but I think you have a major self-esteeem problem and that's what all this "up front" bravado is.
i got the fact that you cut people out of your life when you are stressed, hell even when they just piss you off by telling you something you don't want to hear, I GOT THAT and you knwo that, that's why you want to get back together, after the kids coem home.
Well I dont' want to get back together. Ok I would LOVE to get back together, but not with the way you are on these things, I can't live with them.
You lied to me about so many things, I don't know where to start! I don't have a CLUE what was real and what wasn't as I have heard you tell people things ALL OVER THE MAP! You seem to have lived an incredible life....or have you???? I have no idea and, at this point, I have no desire to try and shake the truth out of you and then analyze it!
You can't even care for your son, every other weekend. How can you love the 4 of us 24/7?
I think you are a great person in there, I really do and I think that others do too. They are nice to you, though you are obviously screwed up and too screwed up to be close to. I am glad you have people that care about and accept you still, I dont' want you to be totally alone.
In any case, I am done, I am done with this and although I lose YOU, I gain something too, I gain the abaility to find a real PARTNER and THAT is what I have wanted above all else in my life (excpet kids) and so now I just must move on to finding that............
I love you and take care:)
