Its so hard with the holidays! BarbJo: I knew is was going to be hard around the holidays with going through a divorce but I didn't think it was going to hurt this much. The thought of waking up christmas morning and my husband not being here is just ripping my heart out. He won't be here to see the kids open their gifts. He won't be here to help put the gifts under the tree christmas eve. We would always watch mass at midnight. I will be by myself this year. Why did he leave me? Why couldn't he want to work it out with me? Why does this hurt so much? I have 2 beautiful kids to spend christmas with. But there is going to be such a void. Today he is with his girlfriend while I am here crying. I don't know if I am going to get through this.
Re: Its so hard with the holidays! sheydp: There is no IF, sweetie, only how. You will get through it with the help of your friends, your family, your tears. But you WILL get through it, and the next reminder, and the next... until you have new memories to replace the old. It will get better, each day, each holiday. You will be ok. You HAVE to, for those little ones... but when you are alone, it is ok to cry and grieve.
(((((((HUGS))))))))
Shey
Re: Its so hard with the holidays! BarbJo: I am trying to be strong for them. Every time I look at them I can't help but think how could he do this to them. How can he be with his girlfriend knowing he has 2 beautiful children he left. How does someone live with themselfs. Does he hurt at all?
Re: Its so hard with the holidays! C-Note: I was at a loss for words. Anything to say to help you cope. Then I read the caption under your picture.
"It will get better. It can only get better."
I believe that statement is true. Hopefully sooner or later you will too.
Re: Its so hard with the holidays! sparks: I know how you feel. I have been feeling the same way. I was wrapping presents the other day and broke down in tears because he is with her and not with us. It hurts. We just have to push through it. 2006 is just 9 days away and it represents a new beginning. Im focusing on that. Out with crappy 2005, the worst year of my life and in with 2006 the potential to be the best.
Anyway, thats what is getting me through right now. That and my beautiful children that love me and show me everyday that things can be good.
