Re: Why the ... Bea: Do I know about that one! Ouch...
Why the ... jadedangel: [color=navy"> Hell do we ask things that we reallly don't want to know?[/color">
Re: Why the ... frontier74: Not knowing hurts nearly as bad... and lasts a lot longer.
Re: Why the ... genesplicer: Good Question...
I think every time we ask a question it makes us feel like there is still some kind of connection there. Whether or not the answer(s) to the question will help us to understand or move forward. I think most of the time the answers only hurt us more after a certain point.
Doesn't make it any easier to stop asking though.
Letting go is a slow process, none of us would be here if it were easy. Little steps... and hey, you're at a month NC now, right? That's a big step! :)
Re: Why the ... jadedangel: [color=navy"> I am so frustrated with myself. Seriously -- what the hell is wrong with me? It's something I try to explain to so many other people ... and I know damn well there is nothing wrong with them -- but for myself I can't even start to believe that right now. This has gone on wayy to long. I thought I was really doing better -- was I completely full of crap? I mean seriously .... so now I have been home for 2 and half hours -- smoked a half a pack of cigarettes and drank most the bottle of Captain Morgan someone so generously left for me .. um -- this is last years bullshit. I have a huge test coming up .. will I study -- no. I have cases for tomorrow .. will I look them up -- no. I feel like I have stepped back into the past and I hate it here. So why the hell am I back where I began --- again. The rollercoaster? I am so f'n sick of it.
Yeah ... I am down to 0 again.[/color">
