devotion

devotion craez: how do you devote your heartfelt emotions to someone for years, and get left in the dirt?! i know love is a risk you take, but thanks for letting me think this risk was worth it! i appreciate having my heart ripped out of my chest! it's just so unbelievable! i gave him everything i had to give for years, and he doesn't have the common decency to allow me some closure. no, "goodbye, things were great". no, "fcuk you". just nothing. wasn't that what destroyed that magical kingdom in the neverending story? the nothing?! it IS the worst!

i'm so tired of crying and jerking awake at odd hours of the night and fearing my long, lonely future....i want him to suffer like me! it's NOT FAIR!!!!!!!!!!!!!! NOT FAIR NOT FAIR!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! i don't deserve this!!!!!!!!

he's not even sad! what the heck?!? DID I MEAN NOTHING TO YOU?!?!

wanker.
Re: devotion shockedandamazed: I know exactly what you are going through. I was best friends with my ex-husband for 10 years, married for 8 years.  He started a new job and 3 weeks later, was done with me. Came home, said he didn't love me anymore and simply left. Left me to take care of everything.

I never got any sort of conversation or explanation. I got my closure from a PI report to answer my questions.

I am so sorry sweetie. It burns...you want him to pay...but in my case, I had to find my own closure...yes, there are some questions that are still unanswered, but I had to accept it was over. Had to move on.

You will too. You will move on. It's a process you will go through and it's your choice on how you move through those processes.

Hang in there, each day is further away from what happened.