Re: He Should Have Been Me
Sheyd, Goddess and Michael I’m sorry. It’s wrong, It’s wrong, It’s wrong. But deep down inside for one person I know, this thing is over.
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Yes, it is over... so is his contribution to his child's life. So is his chance to find a new and greater love. So is his chance to positively impact the lives of others. What a selfish waste.
His child will always wonder about him. Forever wonder if the pain that every human does experience is something that should be experienced. Wonder if it is ok to just be "like Dad" and give up, cause then THEY won't hurt. Leaving behind, as that man did, a ripple effect of people feeling loss and pain - people no one even REALIZED were touched.
There is so much to life AFTER the pain has subsided... and it DOES. Even if we try to hold on to the pain, life is too beautiful to be shut out forever - as long as we are alive. Friends WILL care, yes, they will hurt you sometimes too, but the world is FULL of LOVE. That is worth the pain... even if, in the heart of pain, you can't remember that.
So.... in the heart of pain, when you can't remember beauty and good things and love - remember others. Remember that you would put them through the pain you are feeling, because they have lost you... because they couldn't save you (guilt) and because they didn't realize enough the things they could have done to help... "if only I had...." Don't do that to them. You can live through the pain, so they don't have to, and eventually you will see light again. And HELP YOURSELF to see it - starting with doctors, counselors, prescriptions, and friends.... anything it takes to make the pain easier to bear until you can see straight again. It WILL get better - I PROMISE!
Shey
Re: He Should Have Been Me Goddess: I have to say listen to the wise Shey here.. Remember what I said on goosetape.. Dont let anyone steal your soul.. He is not worth it.. I know that you are at your lowest of lows right now.. You saw what goose went through and all of my other friends when I did what I did in may. You're friend was selfish.. period. I am not speaking ill of the dead.. but ...look at the pain that is left behind? You are going to move through this if we all have to push you.. You are going to get over this hurdle.. I know it hurts like hell honey.. you know that I do! I will do whatever I can to help.. Please though.. get help for your sleep.. get help for the depression.. Check yourself in if you have too.. but get off this train of self destruction. You are far to wonderful and beautiful V. You reached out to me at an awful time in my life without even knowing me.. Do you know how much that touched me? Okay I should have typed this in a PM but I just had to say something.
Listen to Shey.. Listen to Me.. Listen to all those that Love you.. You will get past this and we will help.. ok? Come down and stay here with me and my heathens.. Sam is bound to cheer anyone up!
I love you sweetie.. Call me okay?
Re: He Should Have Been Me snkpack: I don't know you, but I care about you. It makes me nervous to hear you talk this way. I know that you're a good person and you may not think much would change if you were gone, but I know my life would be changed. You've helped a lot of people BB get through some tough times, myself included. Don't fool yourself into believing that you don't make this world a better place, because for me its been better since you came into my life through ojar.
Re: He Should Have Been Me NO DATE: you know I thought the same thing, you have a lot to live for!! people love you think of them not the people who have hurt you. I was never good at giving advise in these situations but from what I've read on here you seem like a very smart and loving person don't throw it away! the world needs people like you, people like me need people like you!! please do get into counseling [not trying to be contrite"> I care ! as does everyone else on here!> :)
Re: He Should Have Been Me C-Note: I feel sick to my stomach. I'm not suicidal and I don’t wish to die. At the same time I know someone who no longer has to deal with the thoughts of his mate, the mother of his child leaving him to be with someone else.
Sheyd, Goddess and Michael I’m sorry. It’s wrong, It’s wrong, It’s wrong. But deep down inside for one person I know, this thing is over.
