Unsent?! Oops!! Katie Wesley: Oh, well. Guess my ex and his ho (my "best friend") got to read these before I found this outlet. OOPS! 8)
This needs a buffer. My ex bf sent me 53 poems after I pleasantly went through the first stage of grief (DENIAL). I actually had the beeotch spend the night in an effort to salvage our friendship. What laugh! :D Don't worry I soon came into anger, which you will get to see as well. The last poem out of the 53 pages was written to me the morning after she stayed with me. Can't you tell? She's so remorseful -whateva (one of her common sayings).
Here's her poem and then read on to see my response if you're entertained. :)
"the friend"
I’m pulling out the splinters one by one.
I hope I don’t brush by you again.
I turned around the other day and decided I was done.
I never wanted to be your friend.
I’m picking myself up piece by piece.
I hope you never hold me again.
I woke up and decided I was tired of watching you sleep.
I never wanted to be your friend.
You’re getting smaller and smaller day by day.
I hope I don’t see you again.
You don’t have the smile that used to make me stay.
I never wanted for this to end.
Your voice haunts me less and less.
I hope you don’t lie to me again.
I never listened to them say that it’s for the best.
I never wanted for this to end.
Don’t ever find me.
Don’t ever remind me
that I never wanted to be your friend.
I never wanted for this to end.
Senseless words clouding the air
Laughter piercing the eyes
The openness pulls me inward
Around so many, yet all alone
No more beauty and sight is cold
All circles around and I stand still
The unknown pushes back
The past holds me there
Two spirits holding hands
Then the release abandons
Vision allows too much to enter
Music plays the mind
Slowly spinning with closed eyes
Hovering throughout nowhere
Emptiness follows and reaches
Hold onto the dark
For the light may just be
The reflection of my eyes
Let me pull you into my shade
Where I can take all of your burning away.
I refuse to watch your disappearing heart
As you remain alone and slowly fall apart.
Lay your head upon my chest.
It’s time you put your fears to rest.
I already have these scars on my hands.
So let me be the one to fall while you stand.
And if one day you go out on your own,
I’ll watch you walk away, but I’ll always be your home
All I can feel is that which I must escape.
How could I be such an enemy?
I can’t even look at you in the face.
And only fear comes from within me.
I would like to turn it into some other world.
…One that would accept this theme.
I would like to turn myself into some other girl.
…One that couldn’t hear you scream.
But it all keeps coming back to this,
And no matter how much I think I’ll miss.
I know what I’ll do in the end.
Never was there such a friend.
Unsent?! Oops!! -the response Katie Wesley: So, here's my response :o
Oh, what a friend.
What a friend she’s been.
She didn’t have to leave or a least to leave this way.
Fall down on your burned hands
Take the fall for me.
You shouldn’t have done it this way.
This isn’t some other life;
This isn’t some other theme.
You can’t escape my cries
And you can’t escape my screams.
I lay awake dreading sleep-
You shouldn’t have done it this way.
Rain falls and all that I can see
Is the dreaded morning awaiting me.
You send me you’re thoughts
And all I’m left to ponder is
Why did she do it this way?
You stole my heart, you stole my love
You replaced my faith in God.
Fall for me then,
Fall upon your wounded hands.
There is no reason
And there is no rhyme.
Why did you do it this way?
Thank you, fuck you
I don’t know what to say.
All I know is the glass remains unbroken-
In every way.
I’m not your enemy
Yet, you chose to be mine.
What did I do? What did I say
To make you end it this way?
I boxed your things, I put them away.
Yet, your soul lingers tending to obey
What your heart desires, what your childhood brings.
What did I do to make you end it this way?
My faith I held in you,
My faith you stole away.
My faith in God restored,
My faith in life renewed.
Thank you or Fuck you,
Which do I choose?
I suppose both.
My life will be happy
Yet, a hole will remain.
The hole that you filled before you went away.
Fever, screams, happiness, love
My voice will always haunt you,
Because here I will stay
Awaiting your return someday.
I mourn you as if you were dead.
No ill words will be spoken of the dead.
Tonight I will sleep with you in his arms.
Tomorrow will come along with the day.
Tomorrow will come, but here I will stay.
My friend, I love you too much.
You turn your back and try to escape
That which will haunt you until you awake.
Life is life, and so how it goes
It isn’t fair, it isn’t right-
You give me no justice and no chance to fight.
I always wanted to be your friend
Eternally, I wait with empty arms.
I have only myself to hold.
I always loved you, and here I will stay.
I will wait to the end
For your return, my friend.
