stupid long letter

stupid long letter icwtsmnl: so i sent that retardedly long letter to him, saying all that i felt was left unsaid.  he read it, or at least said he read most of it.  i know it was too long.  it reminded me of that episode of Friends where Rachel wrote Ross this 17 page letter and he falls asleep reading it.  but i had to write it!  i had to say everything!!   but why?  did i just feel like i needed to have the last word?  i know that its not like he'd read it and say, "omg, everything really WAS my fault after all!!"  duh.  what the heck was i expecting?

now i try to reason with myself-- how should I act towards him now at work?  what's going to make me happy?  i could shoot myself for how "female" i'm being.   when will life feel stable again?
Re: stupid long letter hr: Business like. Smile as much as you can. Hopefully you said everything you needed to in the letter. Now it is done. Today is a new day. Don't be concerned with what you did yesterday. Don't talk about the letter anymore. Go on with your life and get peace knowing that you did what you could and you said what you had to.
Re: stupid long letter spooky: There's always the ugre to get the last word in, get all your hurt out and known to ther person who did it. I feel it too, everyone does and anyone who says they don't is either lying or didn't care much. Don't think about wether or not he read it, that'll drive you nuts. Just focus on having it all out and breaking your silence.
Re: stupid long letter icwtsmnl: he comes into my office all cheery to BS like 6 times a day, even if only for 15 seconds.  is he trying to torture me?  or does the break up just not matter to him??
Re: stupid long letter spooky: Both probably.