I'm so sad and lonely

I'm so sad and lonely Steph1973: That sounds like an old David Lee Roth song. But that is how I feel. I am just so sad. I just want to sit and cry forever. I miss him so much. I didn't talk to him today and I know that's what I wanted but I keep thinking about him all the time. Wondering about where he is and what he's doing. I know that I really don't want to know but why won't my mind and heart stop? I feel like I will never be happy again. I feel like I will never find love again. Why? What did I do to deserve this crap? I always did my best by him, so why did he just drop me like yesterday's garbage? I don't understand. Why did this have to happen to me? It just hurts so much. Will I ever be happy again? Does this ever get any better? I just feel like it never will.
I have an appt to see a counselor on July 28th. I hope I can wait that long. That was the first appt she had. I don't need any drugs, I just need someone to talk to. I hate to keep harping on this stuff with my friends. It really makes me feel like a loser. How could he do this to me? I loved him with all my heart and soul. He was my everything. I just don't get it. I'm just ready for the hurting to stop.
Re:I'm so sad and lonely juscuz: Sara I'm so sorry for your pain. Being in this state really does suck - big time. Good job on the appointment, I'm sure it will help to at least put in some closure, or venting of sorts to someone who can sort it out, face to face.

I am here if you need a friend.
Re:I'm so sad and lonely sarao525: Going to a counselor is one of the best things I have done. They get paid to listen to you rant, and in the end theya re able to offer great advice to help you.

Remember he is the one to lose not you. He may not realize it yet, but it's true. When you don't give up on yourself it gets better. Keep your chin up.

Do one nice thing for yourself daily it helps.
Re:I'm so sad and lonely blueberry pancake: Hi Steph.
I'm where you are. I am so sad and lonely too. I found out about my Husband's affair 5 weeks ago and it still feels like yesterday. I want to cry all day. And I am always thinking about him - always wondering what he's doing and if he's with her. I too sought councel. It has been a big help. I went every week for the first 3 weeks and now I'm down to every other week and I swear I'd go every day if I could afford it because it feels so good to talk to someone with some knowledge of how these things go.
I wish I had more advice but this is new for me too. Hang in there. I don't know if it gets better but it can't feel much worse!
-blueberry
Re:I'm so sad and lonely Safetykc: It does get better Steph. Hang in there and if you need to talk come out here and post anytime.

So sorry for youre pain though...we have all been there with the same questions.

Big Hugs.

Safety