Silence frustrated: Don't you think this is just so sad? After 5 years of speaking to each other everyday...literally never going 24 hours without speaking...we have gotten this cold with each other. Your actions while we were together and now that we are seperated have destroyed that bond that we had. You were the person that I couldn't wait to talk to...if anything happened in my day..big, small, good or bad...you were the one person I always felt I could talk to. We would talk about everything and never leave a conversation...no matter the form (phone, emails, etc) without saying "I love you". And now we use each others formal names and no longer say 'I love you'. I just find it so incredibly sad that you don't realize what you have done and that you don't try to make it 'right' some how. You are never going to be able to turn back the clock and erase the things that you have done. But if you loved me as much as you claimed to...at one point...you would at least try. But I can't wait around for you to realize that the 'lust' you feel for your new woman...is just that...lust. I can't wait around for you to realize how much I gave you...while asking nothing in return. I have to finally start to realize that you stopped loving me a long time ago...and that you didn't have the strength then or now to do anything that isn't completely selfish.
Five years...for us that is about 20% of our life up to this point. And you threw it all away without a care in the word...b/c you were scared of the future and you were weak. You have shown a complete lack of respect for myself and my family. You have been able to get everything you have wanted without being punished...so the only weapon I have left..to punish you in some way (and yes...I still believe you deserve to be punished) is to remain silent. You know me...I love to talk...I was always the one that would cave first...I was always the one that would come back to you and start talking b/c I couldn't stand the silence. Well..hopefully my silence shows you how much you have hurt me and how much you have thrown away. I know that my silence is hurting me as well...b/c I can no longer reach out to my best friend...but in the long run I will be better for this.
Re: Silence MEP2006: I'm with you. I'm staying silent too, though I've always been the one to start the conversation again... just to have the connection re-established. I'm proud of you for sticking to your guns, though. Give him something to wonder about. Don't give him the satisfaction of knowing that you're waiting around for him to change his mind and realize how awesome you are.
