nothing to look forward to right now

nothing to look forward to right now Kinney26: I crashed hard tonight. I just started thinking about how miserable my life is right now. I am just so unhappy. My wife threw me away, I have no friends, I am having to move home in a month in a half because i can't afford my apartment, I got a wonderful 2 1/2% raise at my crappy job, and worst of all I have been demoted to a part time dad which kills me. I feel like I have worked my @ss off over the last 7 years for nothing. I am going to end up where I was before I started. My family was literally everything to me. I just feel like I can let go of my stbx as much as I want, but that doesn't make anything else better. I have nothing in life to look forward too right now. Everything is bad at this point. I know I have my son, but only sometimes and that makes me as depressed as anything. All I ever wanted to be was a husband and a dad, and now I am getting divorced and missing half my son's life.

Re:nothing to look forward to right now timetobefree: Hey Kin! Sorry to hear that you are down right now. It isn't fair and you are right, letting go of your stbx is only a small part of the process. I have been wanting to have a temper tantrum about this whole thing for weeks...wanna join me and scream and kick like two-year olds? Just kidding...well, kinda kidding...

I don't know if this holds true for you, but the weekends are actually harder for me now. I think because I have more time alone with my thoughts. Try not to stay at home by yourself too much. Get some really does get the endorphins going. Try to not to focus on all the problems at once. I know these are hollow words when you are down, but it is going to take some time to sort your life out. Don't let it overwhelm you. You can do this...if you are reaching out to us, you can do this.

I hope this helps in some way...take care of yourself...

Feel free to PM me if you want.

Amy :)
 Re:nothing to look forward to right now Bug: One huge bear hug Kin! I am sorry you had a down day. Life will even out. Just make every second you have with your son quality and you will make up for what you miss in quantity. I hope your day picks up
 Re:nothing to look forward to right now christian: Being alone sucks MAJOR @ss- but it will get better. Not easier, but beter. I went and picked up more of my things (I haven't even spoken to her in over a month) and managed to make it a block away after before I had to pull over and cry. At least she didn't see me cry, this time.
 Re:nothing to look forward to right now in_search_of: *Hugs* Kin! I wish that there was something that we could say that would make the pain go away, but we can't. Just know that even if you can't always physically be there for your baby, then you can still always be there mentally and emotionally! And to him, eventually, that will mean the world to him!

She did not throw you away, she threw away what you had, which obviously did not mean to her what it meant to you! You are sweet wonderful person, and someday you will meet the person who you mean to what she meant to you, and you will feel the same in return!
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