Setting you free... jnc: J---
Tomorrow is the big D-day...are you really ready for this? Are you sure that this is what you want? You pushed me away, told me that you didn't know where I fit into your life anymore. And now here we are less than 24 hours away and you keep calling me. I answer your calls, hoping that you'll tell me that you realized where I fit and that you don't want to lose me, but you don't say anything of those things. You ask what I've been up to, what job offer I'm going to take, etc. I can hear it in your voice and in your sighs...but I don't say anything, I don't go there. I waited for 10 months for you to come to your senses and act like a grown man. I'm not going to try and lure answers out of you. I know you're sorry and I'm sorry too. God knows I 've been sorry since this all happened...sorry I didn't complete you...sorry I didn't give you all the support and love that you said I should...sorry I wasn't a better friend... I'm sorry in so many ways...but most of all I'm sorry that I'm learning who I really am and with this new found sense of self, I realize that I can do it without you. You don't know how much that hurts to say because I still love you with all my heart, but I've come to realize that I love myself more, and with this clarity, I must let you go and set you free, so that I can focus on me.
love,
~J.
