Sex with another didn't matter... lovelost: I had the pleasure and pain of meeting up with a long lost love this weekend. In the beginning of my relationship with my ex, I had a lot of mixed emotions about me and my "friend". Actually, he had been my best friend for a few years and I probably loved him but for many reasons he was emotionally unavailable. For those same reasons, he continues to be a lost soul.
I'm not sure why he was brought into my life again after years and during this horrible time I am going through. We had an amazing night together. One that we should have had a long time ago but I was attached to my ex.
I don't know what I thought would happen. I was physically and emotionally intertwined with him for a night. Although I temporarily forgot the pain of my life, the next day it was all the same only more complicated. Now, I am waiting by the phone for two men to call. My ex for all of the same reasons and my old friend for all of the old reasons that I wanted him years ago.
I'm not sure why I am sharing these sorted details. I know it doesn't make me seem like a principled person but it is who I am. So, for those who may judge let the dam break.
I am sitting here in as much pain as ever or perhaps doubled.
Re:Sex with another didn't matter... Bug: Ugh, complications suck at a time like this. I am sorry your pain is greater now. :( I hope things become better for you. Is he still emotionally unavailable?
Hugs. Be well
