Does anyone else... supermom: Does anyone else just wander around the house late at night? The kids are finally sleeping and here I am in my quite, lonely house. I wander the bedroom, staring at our bed. My eyes catch a glipmse of the wonderful times we shared together in that bed. My head moves again, his dresser. Once filled with clothes, now is empty. This room was filled with love. Now it is the empty room I crawl into alone everynight. I check in on the kids...I stroke their heads quitely telling them how sorry I am that their daddy left. I tried. I want to yell, I fought for our marraige, for our family. I kiss them on their heads..I love you. A walk down the hallway...the family room. The hub of our house. I can hear the laughtier, the smiles the memories. Saturday night movies curled up on the couch sharing a blanket. I open my eyes to a room filled with toys, fruit snack wrappers and the mess I am too tired to clean up. I stare ahead to the addtion. A beautiful addtion we shared in the process of making it everythung we wanted. It's empty. No carpeting, no tile, just echoes in the heart.
Does anyone else wonder what happened? You thought you had a life. You thought you were loved. You felt secure. Then one day the door opens and the person you loved with all your heart walks out that door. No matter how much you love, he will never return. What happened? Each night I sit alone after the kids are in bed and I look around, I walk around, reliving the past. Each day I wake with the reality of the future. I've never felt so much pain. I've never felt so lonely. I never thought he'd leave...
Re:Does anyone else... feelindown: That is what I'm doing right now! I can't believe people hurt their spouses like they do. Doesn't make any sense to me. My wife just left Sat. and took most everything even my beloved cat, lucky we didn’t have kids to put through this. I feel for you. I wanted a family – she wanted a career. Best wishes!
Re:Does anyone else... Kinney26: I still find myself just wandering around once in a while. I have been sick and I stayed home from work yesterday and at one point I found myself walking around looking for nothing with no idea what to do with myself. She used to take such good care of me when I was sick and I wished she was here. I wish I still had some anger left. That made it much easier to get by when I felt hate for her. Now we have been getting along ok, and that just makes it harder.
Re:Does anyone else... lookin4alite: I am so totally feeling the same pain and pointlessness. One moment everything is survivable, the next the emptiness is brutal. I know that this will pass, but I fear that I will remain alone for along time. The kids need me but they are kids and I want a woman that can be trusted by my side. It seems so selfish, my kids are dying for their mom and she can't deal with it. It is so wrong on so many levels.
why do spouses cheat, it hurts so bad...
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Re:Does anyone else... ukchap: Hi Supermom
I've just been thinking the same here in my sad lonely house ....
Looking around just like you seeing the things that were once here .. clothes .. belongings ... make up .. tooth brush
The silence is erie and heartbreaking and there is no escape from the emotions that are simmering within me ..
where did the love go ? why did they have to leave ? will they ever come back ? will the hurt ever stop ?
oh god here we go again ! and there we have it .. 6 weeks seperated and i'm still a wreck with no hope of any kind in sight and of course as time slips by it's getting worse - something tells me I'm heading for divorce and oh god I so much do not want to go down that road ..
