12 years to melt down SanD: Hi everyone I can't believe I'm finally getting a divorce I've been married since I was 20 y.o. way to young but we really were in love madly. Over the years we have grown so far apart. I still love him but I just don't feel happy as his wife we are too different. He doesn't even know me really and what I know of him is kinda jerky and not the sort of person I'd even be friends with. We have 2 great kids and for them I will always be grateful to him for we will try to stay friends and be good co parents. I'm moving though into a 1 bedroom place I'm taking nothing in fact I'll have to pay him 215$ a month in alimony just so he can get by. He has a masters degree and I am a server!! Can you beleive that? I guess nothing about our relationship is as it should be. I support him thru college and I get nothing for it. I bear 2 children and gave so much energy and effort to keep our marriage alive he did nothing but think of himself and so I'm gone and he doesn't even know what happened. Has he just sleptwalked thru our life together? Taking forgranted that I'd always be there when he wanted me,well thats not enough for me I am going to be happy I can fullfill me it scares me a little but the thought of living out my life with someone who can't see me or hear me or know me scares me a heck of alot more. stay strong people
