why?????????????????? Jennicole: you were so great when we met, and fell in love. last christmas when you went off the deep end in your "depression" i should have known then. you were so mean to me! you said things to me to hurt me, wouldnt touch me. i broke down several times because i loved you and didnt understand. you told me it wasnt me it was you and that you get like that every year. i should have known then because i would have never married you! things got better and then we got married and then over night you changed into the a$$hole. you make me feel like $hit on purpose. you wont touch me. i think you enjoy seeing me cry, if not why do you make me cry all the time? i feel like im not even a person, like i dont matter. i cant live like this anymore, but you have warped me because somehow i cant find the courage to leave. i love you so much, yet you hurt me everyday. i cry and cry when i think about leaving because all the memories from when you were good to me flood my mind. i hate you and i hate those memories! i wish i never met you because you have ruined my life. i feel like such a failure 22 and 2 failed marriages. when i leave i know my son will ask for you every single night! what am i supposed to say? james doesnt love mommy like he should? no! i cant do that becasue that would f*ck his head up. so i have to find a way to make you look good to a son you said you would love and treat like your own. i wish you had the b@lls to leave if you wanted to go instead of put me through pure he!!.
