Are you really gone? drobbins: -B
Are you really gone? It’s like you died but only worse because people don’t choose to die but you choose to say goodbye. You choose it! By your own choice you let me go! It’s worse than if you had just died. You said you felt bad because you felt like you were abandoning me. I wish you hadn’t said that because it keeps haunting me. You really were my whole life. I let go of friends and family. You were all I needed and now that you’re gone I realize how cold and lonely this world can be. I’m cold! I’m really cold and don’t know where to go to get warm again. I’ve been in this place before and got myself out of it and swore I wouldn’t let it happen again but here I am stuck in this same hole. I’m really not a smart man. I dragged my feet while we were together. You wanted to get married and I wouldn’t even go look at rings with you. I said hurtful things. We both did. It’s the “what-if’s” that are killing me now. So many squandered chances to make you feel good and connect with you. No longer able to call you my B. No more holding hands. No more making fruit smoothies and dinners together. No more barbeques with you’re family, or vacations and holidays together. Nothing but sleepless nights and tortured breaths and regrets. I know people who get second chances. I need a second chance. I really do.
Dan
Re:Are you really gone? 1973kendoll: Hey dude, I totally relate to what your going through. I was in a similiar situation a month ago, and its killing me too. I am mapping out my plan for the future; its going to be me and only me this year. I'll never be unhappy in a relationship again. Good luck and God bless.
James
