today the hell hit bottom

today the hell hit bottom hoplessinohio: Well today I packed my bags and walked out the door. Next week will be our 1 year anniversary and we are not going to make it. I can no longer take the ups and downs of her moods. 1 day she loves me the next she hates me. She says that I took everything from her when really all I have done for the last year is support her and my 2 step children. She has not worked in over a year and I have paid the bills and put food on the table. I have done nothing but love her yet all she can do is call me a loser and say I am a pathetic excuse for a man. I feel so unappreciated and worthless right now. But I am really confused she hurts me so bad when she says all those things but I am scared to death to leave her. I have nothing I gave up everything for her. I sold my car and all we kept was hers so now I do not even have a car. I called her tonight she said that it is over. I said are you sure??? She said YES!!! I do not do well alone, for some reason I feel the need to live for someone else. Is this normal??? I am so scared right now and I feel so guilty but I just cannot take it anymore. I really need someone to talk to but as you can probably tell I do not know where to begin... Someone please talk to me!!!
Re:today the hell hit bottom justme15: it is not a bad thing to live for someone but it has to be the right someone. Just remember you did what you thought she needed. Can I ask did you and her talk about going to therpy? I know this all hurts everyone here is it one way or the other. Please feel free to talk to any of us :D
Re:today the hell hit bottom Dino: hi there HIO
it was wrong of her to say those things to you but you have done something good for yourself in removing yourself from that destructive environment.

i dont know if its normal to live for someone but i know thats how i felt. after my ex left me i couldnt see a reason for continuing to do things. someone else has posted on this board that men feel the breakup of relationships harder than women because we tend to measure our success in life in uor relationships, or something like that. thats true for me as well. the biggest thing in my life was my ex for me but not anymore.
you arent alone in this shitty pain.
you can PM me if you want anytime.
take care
Dino
Re:today the hell hit bottom hoplessinohio: Hi Dino,
Thank you for your words of wisdom I totally agree that men feel the pain more than woman. Satisfying a woman is a very real source of pride for men, atleast thats how I feel.

HIO
Re:today the hell hit bottom hoplessinohio: Jamie15

We did talk about therapy but the problem is me not her so she says!!!